- Woke up in the morning and talked to my sister for about half an hour, which was nice.
- Then not exactly sure what I did afterwards, but had an argument with mulan in that I didn’t want to go to prince’s street with her (I wanted to be very deliberate about the shopping that I was doing rather than just going and figuring things out, since I had gotten burned by that the day before (see Jan 9, 2020).
- Somehow, when I found one website to help with this (mysupermarket.co.uk), I felt a lot better — I get the sense that for me to get out of the moods where I don’t feel the best and am just blatantly disagreeing with what something is doing, I need to take at least one dub, in my own way, and then things will feel a lot better.
- So yeah eventually got ready and went with Mulan. We went to Tesco first where I bought a good amount of stuff so that was a good idea. Bought a decent amount of travel supplies as well from there.
- After that, mulan left me to go to Prince’s street area but she eventually ended up getting food with some of Elaine’s friends. I went to Argos’, figured how that worked, and from there went back home. Don’t remember too well what I did when I got home, definitely checked out videos of hurricanes because it was so windy (around 30mph).
- Called Tim for an hour which was very nice. Tim is very good at carrying out conversation and thinking of interesting things to talk about naturally, rather than it seeming forced. He definitely does have an issue (idk if it’s an issue but a habit I guess) of letting conversations go longer than they need to, especially when the other person makes it clear that they have to go somewhere or they would want the conversation to end soon, but idk if it’s just a problem with me where I don’t make it clear enough that I have to go or that I also get carried away with the conversation idk.
- Went to this really cute Indian food place with mulan called 10 for 10 in Delhi! I had the mixed vegetable curry and we got this mango lassi with this rose touch to it which was absolutely heavenly, probably the best mango lassi that I’ve ever had. After that, mulan went to this pub crawl thing with people she met during lunch with Elaine, including this French dude who is apparently a really fun guy to talk to and a really genuine guy and this other guy who’s apparently very handsome. Also with this other girl Alexis who puts herself out there very hard and is apparently quite annoying but idk.
- After I got back, I felt the lethargy again, where there were so many things for me to do or that I could’ve taken care of, but I didn’t really do anything until I really had to. I cleaned up my room and set up the trashcans and stuff but I still get the sense that I could’ve done more. This is something that I’m actually afraid of and might not admit to Mulan but I really don’t want to waste my time away in this foreign country where I could be doing a lot of things and expanding my comfort zone in so many ways and instead I’m just complacent doing things that I’ve already been doing. It’s not really a question about me wanting to be productive at this point, it’s just a question of me missing the opportunity to try new things in a place that lets me try them perfectly well.
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