Extraordinarily unproductive today—I’m talking like 4 hours on Hearthstone, 3 hours on Youtube kind of day. It’s weird, because I thought I would be productive given that I was able to wake up on time—I woke up at 8:20 AM. However, both in the morning, afternoon, evening, and night, I suffered from a distinct lack of urgency and agency in whatever I was doing. I think it’s a result of not having classes, or not going to classes at all, or not really having any pressing tasks for me to work on. Instead, most of the tasks that I assigned myself to work on are tasks that I’ve been thinking about or working towards for a long time, so I don’t really have that novelty in the tasks that I’ve been working on anymore, so potentially I’m getting bored of them. In order to correct that, I can—
- Start working on new habits, or things that I haven’t been able to fix.
- Commit myself to finishing ALL of my schoolwork early, if it’s something that I feel like I haven’t had the time to really work on.
- Commit to doing unexplored things, and keep chugging along the path that I’m currently on, except commit to not making the mistakes that I made previously.
It’s funny—I can totally see how my time here has followed the exact “study abroad” curve that everyone was talking about—it started out high, as I explored the new city and country and got used to the chill, relaxed lifestyle, but now, I’m missing it and feeling a bit homesick about the things I had to do back home. Eventually, I’m sure I’ll get back to as high as I was before (and probably even higher), taking the lessons from both my positive and negative experiences to make the study abroad experience a fulfilling one overall.
Also, the escape room was a lot of fun! I think now that I’ve done so many of these, the puzzles don’t feel as novel anymore, but it’s still always fun doing them.
I’m about to sleep soon!
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