Establishing Vs. Executing
I’ve done more than enough of establishing routines and new techniques for myself this quarantine—I’ve had vast amounts of self-growth, and I now know so much more and process information totally differently to how I did before. At the same time, there comes a moment in life when you feel like you’re relying on these systems as a crutch, giving yourself small wins in the name of getting better at the system rather than confronting your shortcomings and facing up to the fact that you haven’t been executing at the level that you should be.
I think I had such a moment today (yesterday). I was feeling uninspired and unable to control my baser instincts (I ended up playing hearthstone for something like 3 hours of my workday). I put my phone in the cupboard for the whole day, so I told myself it was enough and it would be fine if I skimped out on other things like allowing myself to play Hearthstone (which were significantly more important than the physical act of putting my phone in the cupboard - the only reason why the physical act is even relevant is because it signifies the act of putting your distractions away for that time period.)
I’m done giving excuses for myself. I’ve had 4 months to establish a system for myself - I’m very, very used to it now. If I’m not delivering on the things that I should be, it’s nobody’s fault but my own - system or not, sometimes you just need to do things, and I haven’t been doing the best job of that recently.
In summary, I’m not going to blame any kind of system when I shirk my commitments or when my productivity otherwise takes a dip - I just have to live within the framework I’ve created for myself and promise myself that I’m doing the absolutely best I can. The rest isn’t worth considering.
uid: 202007221725 tags: #insights #living-well